Half A Year

Happy Half Birthday Son.  Has it already been half of a year?  It seems like you were just born but yet again, I don't remember my life without you.  You have filled my heart with so much happiness that most days, I feel like it is going to explode.  I have to admit to you, you were a surprise to your Dad and I.  You were a shock of a lifetime for us, something we didn't plan or expect.  The day I found out I was having you, I knew that I would never be alone.  I had you with me, physically, for 38 weeks and 5 days.  You heard my heartbeat from the inside, you were alive because I nourished you, you depended on me to live, I was your world -- and now you are mine.

From the very beginning I was so scared.  Your Dad was scared too.  How were we going to be able to do this?  Raise a child?  We were use to our dogs who we could leave for the night as long as they had food and water.  Often times the dogs seemed like a lot of work so we couldn't begin to wrap our minds around being the parents of a baby, of a little tiny baby human.  We weren't sure what to expect, what we would do, or how much we could possibly love you.

The moment you were born seems like a blur.  With my delivery, the medicine, the pain, the exhaustion - it is such a blur.  I didn't cry when I first saw you, I was in shock of what was happening and I didn't cry.  I have felt so guilty about that since the day you were born.  Since that day though, I have cried a lot.  Thinking about you, your smile, your giggle, your smell - everything about it brings me to tears of joy.  I have one running down my face right now.

What's going on with YOU:
YOU HAVE TWO BOTTOM TEETH!!

(You like to bite Mom sometimes too -- Ouchy!)
You are smiling and laughing at everythin
As of last Friday you weighed 15lbs and 11 ounces
YUMS:  rice cereal, bananas,  sweet potatoes, and carrots.  YUCKS:  avocado and sweet peas
Trying apples tonight, I know you will love it!
You are trying to learn to sit up but you are a bit wobbly still.
You are rolling over both ways!  Yippeee!  
Wearing some 3-6 and some 6-9 month clothing, big boy.
You're best friend is Banjo.
Favorite time of day is the morning.  You are so full of life!
Oh, you have been to the ER once for a bump on your head, that story can be told later.

The past 6 months we have had several ups and downs, bumps in the road.  Raising you has been difficult at times but absolutely perfect.  I'm tired, you're tired, you're hungry and I didn't drink enough water that day, you want to snuggle and I need to take a shower.  It's been a test of patience for sure!  Day by day we make it though.  We make it through the sleepless nights, the tummy aches, those mean ol' teeth, Mommy not drinking enough water or eating enough food that day (low supply), growth spurts, and more.  I'm pretty proud of us, all three of us.  We have done things that I didn't think I would ever be able to do - I have kept a tiny little human baby alive, healthy, and safe for 6 months.  YAY Mom and Dad!



I can't believe your first year is halfway over.  It has been the best half year of my life.  You are incredible and I'm so lucky to be able to call myself your Mom.

I love you my little Oaks Cupcake!
Momma