Tit for Tat

Why is it the we have to constantly compare what you did for someone expecting the same favor returned?  That is how we are programmed, as humans, but that isn't right.  We shouldn't give only to get something in return.  I've been struggling with this lately.  Really struggling.

One reason is that I have noticed since Oaks was born that some people that I knew would be around to see him, visit with us, and create a relationship with him hasn't been around.  I know, how do you create a relationship with a newborn - but at least see the little guy.  It's been frustrating (and hurtful) for me on numerous occasions.  I know everyone is busy... a lot of our friends and family have kids and I know now how difficult that is.  I just know that I have went a lot of hospitals, a lot of houses, a lot of ballgames, plays, and graduations.  I have taken time out of my busy schedule on numerous occasions to be with or help those I care about.

So, as I learn to not compare apples to apples and oranges to oranges I will continue to pray for strength and kindness.  With my hormones these days, I definitely need the kindness.  No one ever told me that I would become even more a beyotch after I had Oaks.

Ahhh, I feel better now.  Thank you for allowing me to be a raging hormonal Mom for a minute.