I'll tell ya what I want

So I busted out singing the Spice Girls...  I'll tell ya what I want, what I really really want....so tell me what you want, what you really really want.... I want a... I want a..  Ok - moving on.

If we all sat down and listed what all we wanted, not just material things but what we wanted out of life, we would all have a pretty big list.   So, instead of what I want out of life but what I want for this pregnancy.  Ugh, I know don't plan, don't get your hopes up, keep an open mind, I know, I know, I KNOW!  I'm the pregnant girl and I can list what I want if I want... so here it goes.

If you all haven't noticed, I've changed a lot since being pregnant... in a lot of different ways.  I have boobs that feel real, a big belly, wide hips, well wider hips, super thighs, well more super thighs, swollen ankles, and a movement in my stomach that no one can explain.  I've changed in other ways too.....I don't take over the counter medicine any longer.  I have learned to pick my battles, with the dogs -- I'm trying to prepare myself.  I eat as many fruits and veggies as I can, I find it much more important than I use to.  I believe in getting vitamins and nutrients in it's natural form is best.  I don't clean as often or feel that my life is out of order if I haven't mopped that day.

My Wants for this pregnancy, delivery and baby:
I want to continue to have a healthy pregnancy and healthy baby.
I want to deliver our baby into a calm and happy environment.
I know it hurts - you really don't have to tell me.  I do not have plan -- natural, epidural, c-section.  At the time of delivery I hope the best decision is made for the health of the baby and me. 
I want to breastfeed my baby, exclusively.
I know it is going to hurt and it is very time consuming.  I hope and pray for patience and strength during the first few weeks and for my body to do what it is supposed to do, produce milk.
I want to immunize at our own pace, not on the schedule of the doctor.
I know I'm not a doctor but I am a Mom - We will do what we feel is best for our baby. 
I won't use the timeline to feed him cereal, solid foods,etc.
Every baby is different and when we feel that he is ready, we will start that.  Did you know that there are babies that on their first birthday they have only had breast milk?  No solids, no cereal, only Momma juice. 
I want to make my own baby food when he starts eating solids.
I know I can buy it but why should I when I can make it?  We make smoothies for ourselves every morning, so I hope we can get into the practice of making baby food weekly as well. 
I think cloth diapering is great and I want to do it -- but know that I can't!!!
I think that if you have the set up (and the stomach) then go for it!  Cory and I both have weak stomachs, having to change diapers is going to be difficult enough - we shouldn't push our luck.  More power to those Moms who can!!!!

Every pregnancy, delivery, and child is different.  I have been one of those judgmental non-Moms basically my entire life.  Well, that has changed too.  I will do things different than a lot of people, people will judge us for the things we do and don't do.  If you know me, you know I don't color in the lines very often, why start now?!?

In a few months I may post about how all of my Wants were out of reach and I was just a crazy hormonal pregnant lady with big ideas.  Until then, I will continue to research, read, and pray for guidance!

Buying a book today called Redeeming Childbirth.  Hopefully I can read it soon and will let you all know what it is about!